Finding myself...

Well this post, is something different. Different because its about my inner feelings. And I just wanted to let them out.

I got lost. Im on my way to find myself. If someone know where Im at, please let me know...

I think the most decisive factor for this, was when a very special part of my life left my side. I was broken. I cried myself asleep every night for years. Never thought that something like this could happen to me. But dont we always think, "Oh man, this is not gonna happen to me" and then baaam right in your face. Of course when I think back, no one, and seriously NO ONE can replace you. I still cant say that I hate you, because I loved you to much. Im still hurting when I see you. I cant change the past, I cant take any words that were said. I hope you have a great life. I miss you. (and no its not an EX)

BUT:

I think this journey brings me back to what I am, what I used to be and for what Im going to be.
And guess what, I really enjoy finding myself. New experience, adventures, yea and my independence. I discover everyday something new. Im getting my self-confidence back, that I lost years ago.
Im moving forward.
Yay me for slowly finding mysef back. And a BIG thank you for those people whoare still by my side eventhough Im million miles away (well actually you guys are million miles away).
I really appreciate that.

Its been only 6 weeks now, and Im really looking forward to the future, to new people, new (and of course old) friends, new places, new adventures and a new/old me, myself and I.

I know what I am, and no one can take that away from me.

Simply love it...

My One-in-a-million

So my loved ones,

since my wonderful Sam dedicated her last blog to me, I have to dedicate a blog to her aswell.

Where do I start!?
Well Ive met this crazy chick on New Years 2007-2008. Hanging out at Murphys, Irish Pub or James Joyce with our fav. people. Meeting guys, felt for them, got heartbroken, met new people, went through alot of gossip, fake people and last but not least DRAMA.
BUT we also had awesome times like unforgettable roadtrips, parties, ink dates, talks, laughs and inside jokes. Wonderful memories I can share with you.

You are one of those people who will always, no matter what, have place in my heart (and skin).
You have been always by my side, even when times got rough.
You are the one that is still by my side eventhough Im million miles away.

I just wanna say THANK YOU for being who you are when you are with me, and that I can be myself when Im with you. Thats what I call a real friendship.

I could go on and go on, but I dont wanna get to cheezy... lol

I love and miss you.

XOXO

Jessi

One of the first pics 2008

Irish Pub 2008

My 21st Bday at the Irish Pub

Waiting on Chaddy Sep 08

August 2010, damn we look good.

Pics from the Mass/New Hampshire/Maine Trip

Lena and me at Seabrook Beach, its beautiful there.

We met this crazy dude at the hotel bar, fun night.

1 month down - RESUME

Hi guys,

wow its been awhile... 1 month is already down and there are 12 more to go...
Im finally getting used to everything and really like it here. We had 2 cluster meetings. Which were helpful and I also got to meet the other Aupairs. Girls all over the world, but mostly from Germany.
Ive made a few trips, I got to see Boston with a really qualified cityguide. ;o) Special thanks to Desirae again. Toooo bad is was so freaking cold and rainy. ;o) And I went also on a roadtrip with Lena. We went up the coast from Massachusetts to Maine. It was amazing. We really felt for this area. It was like a vacation for us. We started in Cambridge, where I picked her up, then we crossed the boarder to New Hampshire and visited Seabrook Beach and Hampton Beach up drove the Route 1 on the coast to Portsmouth, stayed there for like 1 hrs and drove up over the boarder to Maine till Portland and stayed there over night. It was a real fun weekend. We took a million of wonderful pictures.
Now Im really looking forward to Thanksgiving. I got the pleasure to spend it with the Clement Family. OOOOHHHH and to Black Friday (SHOPPIIIIING) ;o)))

I miss and love u guys!


Juhuuu meine Lieben,

puh war ja schon ewig nicht mehr hier... ;o) 1 Monat habe ich schon hinter mir und 12 weitere warten noch auf mich. ;o) So langsam gewöhne ich mich an alles und mag es hier. Es fanden bereits schon 2 Cluster Meetings statt. Sie sind sehr hilfreich und man lernt alle Aupairs in der Umgebung kennen. Mädels aus der ganzen Welt, aber die meisten sind aus Deutschland. ;o)
Ein paar Trips hab ich auch schon gemacht, der erste ging in die Innenstadt von Boston, ich hatte einen super Stadtführer, speziellen Dank nochmal an Desriae. ;o)
Desweiteren haben wir (Lena und ich) nen Roadtrip, die Küste hoch nach Maine gemacht. Es war wunderschön. In Cambridge habe ich sie abgeholt, nach der Grenze zu New Hampshire sind wir zum Seabrook Beach und Hampton Beach, Richtung Portsmouth gefahren, nachdem wir ne Stunde durch Portsmouth gefahren sind, ging es weiter nach über die Grenze nach Maine nach Portland. Der Trip war wunderwunderschön, wir haben glaub ich ne Millionen Bilder gemacht... ;o)))
Naja, jetzt freue ich mich erstmal auf Thanksgiving dass ich der Familie Clement verbringen werde.
OOOHHHH und auf den Black Friday (SHOPPIIIIING) ;o)))

Ich vermiss und lieb Euch!

XOXO

Jessiiii <3