Finding myself...

Well this post, is something different. Different because its about my inner feelings. And I just wanted to let them out.

I got lost. Im on my way to find myself. If someone know where Im at, please let me know...

I think the most decisive factor for this, was when a very special part of my life left my side. I was broken. I cried myself asleep every night for years. Never thought that something like this could happen to me. But dont we always think, "Oh man, this is not gonna happen to me" and then baaam right in your face. Of course when I think back, no one, and seriously NO ONE can replace you. I still cant say that I hate you, because I loved you to much. Im still hurting when I see you. I cant change the past, I cant take any words that were said. I hope you have a great life. I miss you. (and no its not an EX)

BUT:

I think this journey brings me back to what I am, what I used to be and for what Im going to be.
And guess what, I really enjoy finding myself. New experience, adventures, yea and my independence. I discover everyday something new. Im getting my self-confidence back, that I lost years ago.
Im moving forward.
Yay me for slowly finding mysef back. And a BIG thank you for those people whoare still by my side eventhough Im million miles away (well actually you guys are million miles away).
I really appreciate that.

Its been only 6 weeks now, and Im really looking forward to the future, to new people, new (and of course old) friends, new places, new adventures and a new/old me, myself and I.

I know what I am, and no one can take that away from me.